Summer came to a wooshing, race to the finish end, rolling over me and right into the brief (but intense) back to school season -feeling like a rock tumbling through white rapids and then, suddenly, a void. So, now as things settle in to a routine and now as I once again can carve out time to care for myself, my family, my home at a quieter pace with less energy needed for immediate concerns - I look around and ack. Piles. Dirt. Clutter. A sense of not knowing where to start, of wanting to start over, of being somewhat overwhelmed. Surfing blogs is a wonderful tool for procrastination! I found Liane Tyrrel's site
Enhabiten (we both had photos featured on
These Moments) and spent some time pouring over her
beautiful pictures. At first, they just took my breath away.
 |
| Photo by Liane Tyrrel |
Then, I felt panicky and that everything here is
wrong. And, then the sun rose and filled my home, casting a beautiful glow here and there, highlighting lines and colors along with the dust and rubble.
Yes, the place is in need of a good and deep tidy, but nothing is wrong unless I say so and so I say it's right.
I need to fall back in love with this place and care for it properly. I picked up my camera and began to break down the big overwhelm a bit, to focus on a small, tiny bit of beautiful sunshine as it lit up our home. (Others would have picked a broom and mop and started in on the mess...oh, no, not me! I have to work up the inspiration first!)
With the leaning in and the twist of my zoom lens, I cut out the stack of papers on the table and focused on the way the sun shone through a leaf, I eliminated the toppled laundry baskets and discovered the curve of the curtain. (
Process of elimination just happens to be Kat's current photo challenge theme, but I'm too late to link there.) Oh, and I did wash the dishes in the sink, make my bed, and start a wash.
I love the photos and am happy to share them. It is a step in the right direction. Growing some inspiration (and shrinking some baggage) to tackle some jobs - big and small - around here and to keep perspective and find beauty and a way to coexist with (some of) the detritus of a happy, active, loving family. Now, to combine this inspiration and perspective with a "just do it" attitude and some elbow grease - because wishing it won't make it happen, and I want it to happen. Because, I do. Love this place.
