We are all interconnected. What you do today, right now, matters the most. You are creating and influencing the world around you at every moment so take a deep breath, smile and shine light into your sphere of influence. It's how we can all make the world a better place. ~Zeke of Bodhicitta
I am grateful for the rain falling and for the sun having the sense not to shine.
I'd like to spend the day in silence.
I feel the need for crying. I welcome the healing release of tears.
Mostly, I look forward to the reprieve that comes after these anniversaries, from watching the clock, from replaying the oh, so, very sad story moment by moment. A reprieve from the rawness that is so easily tuned to hurt and loss - the work necessary to resist the pull of the trauma, the hole that gapes and calls to me, the exquisite and seductive pain I can touch, the need to tell my story to someone - anyone.
And then, over the next days these rocks
~ these heavy and huge boulders of memory, love, loss, and pain ~
become easier to carry for a bit...
...tucked in the giggles of my children, the gorgeousness of my husband, the hugs of friends and family, and the pockets of my full, full heart.