Monday, July 26, 2010

Taking a step back

 Deep breath.  
Stepping back.  
I feel like I'm made of glass today - broken at the slightest touch.
Trying to keep from being shattered.
Keeping above the surface.
Breathing, waiting it out ~ the anticipation worse than the anniversary.
Keeping busy, delaying the inevitable ~ because, 
in the end grief does not allow herself to be denied. 
And, then I will piece back together ~ for another year without Nathan, 
a year filled with blessings (both counted and taken for granted), 
a year wrapped in moments filled with emma, annie, & paul.